May 18, 2022, noon
Beauty is everywhere
From the first moments you wake up
You see your scenery
Whether it’s your pet, your bed
Or even turn your eyes to look out the window
You see the beauty of nature
Until you avert your eyes straight ahead
A mirror so visible
A societal norm to standardize
This term is called beauty
Where humans should look a certain way
Captivating the beauty of their outer shell
Mandating to follow specific rules and rituals
Regimes, structure, fixation
What about those most vulnerable?
The ones whose worlds fall apart
Their trauma is so dear and so close
To find a sense of control, structure, fixation
Which manifests to some method of perfection
Starvation, appearance, perfection, congratulations!
Congratulations says society
Congratulations for being so ‘sick’
“Weak? You’re strong!” says the voice
Congratulations! You exceeded your goal
“Not close enough!” says the voice
Congratulations! You’re more lovable!
“Not on my terms; you must keep going!” says the voice
Keep going because it’s Not Enough
Until one day...
The conversation is endless this internal dialogue
A continuous vicious cycle
Society nowadays is obsessed with beauty
A specific body, type, and mindset
It’s such a contradiction you see.
People with Eating Disorders tend to keep it a secret
While people on diet regimes announce it to the world!
Don’t you realize the harm you’re doing is another’s suffering?
The realization, the war and competition
Yet don’t you see that everyone’s beauty is purely unique?
Why must we follow these rules, diets, stupid regimes
When we should just accept who we are
Our bodies move how they should
Our bodies look how they are meant to be
Because we are spectacular just how we are
Why must we follow some bullshit diet routine
When we should remember our beauty within.
I have been on my own internal war path of eating disorder recovery. The challenges faced daily especially when diet culture is everywhere. From grocery stores, transit commutes, family gatherings, ads on tv and magazines, these unnatural beauty standards do not define who we are as a person. It is all make believe.
I have learned that despite this constant dark light, I need to remind myself that I have my own war to fight. I need to recognize that what one is doing to themselves is another’s suffering.
It took me a while to realize and establish boundaries within myself and others around me. While recovery isn’t perfect, and each day is a struggle, I know there’s a light shining brightly waiting for me to reach and touch its beauty. Glistening so proudly, even if I can only see it at a distance, I know it’s cheering me on. With self-recognition and awareness - I AM Beautiful. Incredible. Fierce. I am fighting a daily battle when society’s volume is on EXTRA loud.
When days are hard, when the media is on bright and loud, remind yourself that this is not reality. YOU are the spotlight. You are beautiful. Your body moves the way it should, naturally. Your body looks how it should, naturally. You are the natural beauty.
Abby is a proud disabled person and part of the LGBT community with a passion for advocating for marginalized people and communities. They are aspiring to become a Child and Youth Care practitioner to empower and advocate alongside young folks and to make a difference. In between school, advocacy work, giving back to the community, they enjoy singing, playing the piano, reading a good book with their cat and enjoying nature.
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